So it has been quite awhile since my mom has been gone, I haven't and don't think that I ever will learn to live with this. I really wish that I could talk to you right now I miss and need your guidance "RIGHT NOW" I reallywish I knew what I could do so that I could just speak with you for a few minutes. I thought that I was helping a young mother find herself when her best friend put her and fher daughter out, low and behold it has caused more stress on my family than any other theyr have argued so much that I am about to lose my mind, I do not know why this boy (my son) doesn't just let her leave I am trying to be as nice as I can in a minute they are both going to gert the fuck out of here I really don't care where he goes, but this is the last straw. Sorry this turned out to be like this mom if you were still here I would have somewhere to turn and talk to but instead I have no one who understands me tight now and I am loosing myself to grief I am trying to fight this battle alone and it is hard. I'll be back later when I go into a rage cause of all of this bye for now. 

ME